I was raised on privilege but not
necessarily spoiled other than the privilege I received but I did
grow up with certain preconceived ideas and ideals with which others
did not have to deal, consequently my nature was strongly influenced
by my personality and that personality did not want to follow any
rules at all unless they were constructed by me.
I learned very quickly how that
attitude would work to my disadvantage but it did not seem to deter
me at all, even though during my 45 year working career, I was
terminated 10 times... and, that in a non bragging way, is being let
go every 4.5 years.
It is very difficult to build up
retirement with this kind of attitude and to be quite honest with
you, no retirement was actually built up by me, so I am a victim of
whatever the Feds are willing to give someone like me, who, did in
fact work 40 quarters.
I know a lot of things but to say that
I know myself is not necessarily true, nor do I know from an absolute
standpoint what it is that I actually believe anymore, if I ever
believed anything in the first place.
My last employer was an educational
institution and I worked there for 3 years teaching courses in
business management with only a MBA degree while most of the other
instructors had PhDs. My competitive advantage in the classroom was
that I could bring in scenarios from the so-called “real world,”
which could not and would not ever be found in textbooks.
I also thought that bringing out the
negative and putting it on the table like Thanksgiving Dinner would
give us a chance to either eat it or replace it with something else
to eat.
For 3 years and to about 1000 students
I would tell them that if they did not like what I said that they
could simply go down to the Dean and tell them... and if, the Dean
did not like what I said and I was fired... that I would simply go
to the house and sit on my deck from that point on, drinking coffee
and pondering the end, less universe while collecting money from the
Government.
Well, it took 3 years, but someone
finally went to the Dean and I was fired immediately for some damn
reason but when I filled for unemployment and my former employer
tried to prevent that from happening, they could not provide any
evidence at all to justify my termination.
Still, I was terminated... and, that
was that... and here I am drinking coffee and pondering the
universe.
This happened to me at 66 years of age
and I am now 67 years of age and you would think that I would have
learned my lesson by now, but I guess I have not...
Why is that, you ask?
Because I am still writing
controversial articles that enrage a lot of people... which is
exactly what I have been doing all my life and pretty much the reason
why I do not have any friends or very few... no, there is really
only 1 and I am not counting my wife, so I suppose there are 2...
but, don't ask her because I am not exactly sure if I can count on
her or not.
So, what is it that I am trying to
confess?
I write all these articles, some of
which, are intentionally written to create controversy with the
reader and the confession then is the knowledge that I am not sure
why it is that I do that?
My wife says that I just want to create
an argument and that I would argue with anyone over anything... and,
while that might be partially true but certainly is her perception,
it is not totally true... because part of me sincerely and seriously
wants to know if the other person really believes in what they
believe or if they are just trying to convince me that they believe
in something to see if they can.
There are certain subjects that are for
all intents and purposes “hands off” in public forums, such as:
- 2nd Amendment Rights
- Abortion
- Same Sex Marriage
- Creation versus Evolution
- Atheism
- Terrorism
- Putting America Down
- Pickup Truck & Rednecks
- Anti-military
- Homosexuals
- Racism and/or Sexism
- Woman Liberation
It is not that people are not willing
to talk about these subjects because they are... they are actually
more than willing... but, it is a no win argument, as people have
preconceived ideas and strong beliefs for whatever reason and these
kinds of arguments will get heated at times. And, rather than
seriously arguing they are just trying to find clever ways to put
down the other person... in the hope of making he/she look
ridiculous...
So, this is my confession and to some
degree, I feel like someone who walks into the middle of a crowed
room and stands there for a minute or two passing gas and then walks
to the corner of the room where that person stands observing
behavior.
But, while this is a confession this is
not any kind of admission that I am, in fact, out of gas to pass,
because I assure you that I am not... and, no doubt, I will write
another article very shortly that again steps of peoples toes and off
we go...
Maybe before that happens my wife will
retire and want us to travel all the time and in so doing there will
be precious little time to write at all... who knows for sure.
And, I suppose that people could complain about what I have written
and my account will be shut down again like it was before... but, I
suppose that is all part of the same game as well... and, it is very
easy to start again under a new name and email address.
And what goes around comes around make
very little difference to me at my age as I will write my thoughts
down somewhere even if I don't have an audience... just like I did
my poetry... and, in case you are wondering which you are probably
not, I have written over 42,000 poems.
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